I dont plan on making this a long blog today, just a short revelation on what has happened this week and where we are today after the week is over.
Monday and Wednesday were blessings of days, where I was able to go and help out a friend who really needed someone to come and help her with her little ones while she was on (we hope) temporary bedrest. This is a friend that I wronged years ago, shutting her out of my life at one of the most painful moments in my personal history–lumping the good in with the bad and just tossing it all onto the trash heap and walking away. I told her I was sorry–I have grown up a lot since then (praise you Lord) and we found ourselves chatting about all manner of things. When we were last laughing like that she had one little one–now she has three beautiful fun kids and the last one on the way. I have missed so much due to my issues. So what did the Lord teach me with that? That there are always new beginnings, and that grace can be extended by people as well as the Lord. And that SOMETIMES taking a chance to open a door you shut in the past means you have to trust, hold your breath and leap–knowing God will help you make the best of a bad situation.
Amazingly, that was the same day that my little sister and my birth mom called from the doctor office, crying, laughing and not making too much sense…except to tell me that we would not be adopting ONE baby in March/April, but TWO. Shock, awe, a strong sense of the Holy Spirit moving in the midst of what had already been a crazy situation…and here was this blessing I was able to share with a friend whom was blessed by the info, and to be one of the first to know. For those of you just catching on at the end of the adoption train–Kurt and I started this journey last March, attending and finishing the foster/adopt classes here in SW MN, started a homestudy through a Christian agency only to have it dropped when their charter was changed so we could not adopt a child under 9. Next came turning to our county to do the homestudy, and were finishing that up when our beloved Birth Mom called us out of the blue and asked us to adopt her baby when it was born in the Spring.
We had probably one of the worst choices to make–to take a chance on this dear person and possibly end up with nothing, or to continue down the safe path and know eventually we would be welcoming a sibling set into our home. That choice was made in September, and there are those of you who know the tears we shed over this whole thing. We did not understand why NOW of all timing we were being given the hardest choice we had ever made–take a leap of faith with all we had, or take the sure steady path. And now, here we are, parenting a beautiful sweet 9 year old, and expecting twins in March, with a birth mom who calls me almost every day and who I have had the privilege to pray for and support with my friendship–knowing the Lord did this for a purpose. :For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a purpose.”
What did God teach me in all of that? That when you think you are blessed to where God can not possibly bless you anymore, just hold your breath, blink, and hold out your hands—and He will fill your cup to overflowing.
And today is Saturday, with a day of worship and blessing right around the corner, things have finally sunk in, our hearts and minds have kicked into gear and we are in the planning stages of a true revolution of the Estey household over the next 6 months. Whew–what a week.
So Lord Jesus, I am just going to tell you in words, in public, that You are one Holy, Mighty and Amazing God. Help me to overcome my unbelief that you can outgive, outlaugh, and more than anything, outbless me. I cant wait for the day I can run into your arms and give you the biggest hug that this poor servant of yours could give. I bless your holy name…..Holy holy holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come, With all Creation I sing praise to the King of kings, for You are my everything and I will adore You….